Equality is not the end. It’s just the end of the beginning of the human race’s journey

I find myself incapable of justifying the objective of equality the way I write positively about suicide and assisted suicide. It’s not a logical proposition for me.

It is what my better parts dream of. It is an intuitive conclusion from my heart and soul, not my mind. The Equality First series of posts on this blog are about the application of logic and mathematics to one area of equality (employment equality) but I haven’t justified the goal with the same vigour and work as my writings on the right to die.

Equality is beautiful to me but the human race is so very ugly. This is me speaking from my heart and my soul. It is intuitive given the things I’ve experienced. After all, we’re all products of what’s been done to us.

I can’t justify equality but the best of me believes it’s the right thing. As I look around the street where I’m sat I don’t see equality. I see a wide range of inequality and that’s the truth of reality rather than the dreams from my heart and soul.

We are definitely not equal and that’s the logical truth. We have never been equal and we never will be.

The drugs I miss most aren’t just the ones which made me very happy

I’ve had amazing experiences from cannabis, ecstasy and crack cocaine but they were rare and unrepeated.

It’s such a shame this chemical forms of happiness and experiences aren’t available to my now. It’s not my choice but someone else wants to deny me my happiness.

There is a tyranny in current drug policy which will be revealed in the future as a worthless tyranny enforced by stupid, worthless people who think psychiatric drugs are the only source of chemical happiness and the rest of the wide gamut of other forms of chemical happiness and experiences must be illegal.

There are so many other chemicals which enhance life. There are so many other chemicals which can bring temporary feelings of happiness for suicidal individuals like myself and others who simply want to get more from life using chemical enhancements.

But I can’t get hold of any of them and the prescribed drugs I use are all but useless and at best are mediocre.

Most of the people most of the time want equality

I think this is true but not acknowledged by the rich and powerful people.

Equality affects most people because the elite few have all the privileges whereas the masses depend on human rights laws and equality movement to give them more of what the privileged few have.

Democracy is founded on the principle of equality but democratic nations aren’t based on equality in the same way.

Am I wrong?

There’s an inalienable human right to choose how and when one dies.

Human rights frameworks are ever evolving but there’s a constant battle to keep them moving ahead. There’s a never ending war for liberty and equality.

As you’ll gather from the rest of this blog I’m a firm proponent of the right to die. I see the legalisation of assisted suicide as an essential form of mercy. It is humane to provide suicidal individuals control over their death whereas the status quo is both inhumane and tyrannical.

Human rights fight against the control which politicians want to exert over the populous and put control in the hands of individuals. People are free to determine their life decisions and life choices because these freedoms are protected by human rights.

The current suicide system fights against legitimising suicide. It also wants to keep assisted suicide illegal. Suicide is no longer a crime but imprisonment is still used albeit imprisonment in a psychiatric hospital. The suicide system has focused a lot on suicide prevention so even though suicide is decriminalised it has become more and more difficult to use good suicide methods (quick, painless, non violent, reliable). The police will intervene if they’re made aware that anyone has gotten hold of good suicide drugs or other methods of suicide which are purchased online and shipped from overseas.

There is no mercy in these blatant assaults on personal liberty. Those who would help someone to die are considered to be criminals. This bizarre criminalisation is the height of cruelty. It is typical of the absence of humanity which is typified by the objectives and practices of the modern suicide system.

The practices of the modern suicide system lack compassion as well as a basic concept of how terrible the suffering is which precipitates suicidal feelings. No greater good is served because the modern system doesn’t care a whit for preventing suicidal feelings from happening but focuses on stopping suicide attempts from succeeding. This blatant inhumanity is because it doesn’t appreciate how severe the suffering is.

The modern suicide cares nothing about prolonging or worsening the suffering. If it did I’d never need to write another word.

It is as merciless and inhumane as the people that the status quo continue on. This might sound harsh but in the history of human rights is usually a fight between a few opponents and a few proponents. The people benefit or are cursed by whomever wins but their inaction has resulted in things like the atrocities done by the Nazis or the persecution of homosexuals.

Suicidal individuals are persecuted today by a system which refuses to respect the decision to die. The system doesn’t appreciate the suffering which is severe enough to be worth dying to escape or care about worsening it. The suicide system doesn’t care about human rights and basic liberties either. It is wretched and inhumane but it is well supported by politicians and the public alike.

Suicide is a choice and it’s a major decision but the decision is made so the individual can be spared from too great a suffering. A humane response begins with respecting the individual to know what’s too awful for them to live through and it’s an example of the humanity which is wholly absent from this society and culture.

Suicide pain is by definition severe and a humane response is to prioritise the brevity of the suffering even if it is achieved by granting a suicidal individual a good death. The mercy comes from empathy. Evil proliferates because there’s no empathy.

But I am just a slave trying to change the slavers. I can’t fight the tyranny alone. You need to find the empathy in yourselves. Until then the inhumane inhumanity will just keep on going.

Read more about this on my suicide blog.

Suicide digital surveillance and intervention

The technology of modern personal communication creates a lot of positive things for lots of people. Unfortunately it also has some drawbacks and the one I want to talk about here is how personal information in digital systems can be used to prevent suicide.

The prevention of suicide sounds like a good thing but this is a misnomer. Suicide is a valuable solution and a personal choice. Personally I believe that assisted suicide must be legalised and there should be a human right to choose one’s death.

However such views aren’t commonly held. Most of the suicide organisations and experts seem to support the prevention of suicide rather than recognise it is a personal choice. A substantial amount of effort is therefore put in to preventing suicidal individuals from accessing good suicide methods and digital technology provides an excellent way to surveil suicidal individuals to prevent them from killing themselves.

This is technology being used for persecution. I’m sure most technologists don’t see it that way and this ignorance is reinforced by the attitude of the police and healthcare professionals. It’s not thought of as persecution because it is being used to meet what are purported to be ethical objectives.

Suicide is perceived as a symptom of mental illness therefore it is an Irrational choice and vulnerable individuals need to be helped to prevent them from killing themselves. Using Outernet data to protect individuals from succeeding in killing themselves is therefore not persecution but care. Surveillance can also be used to connect suicidal individuals with people to talk to so, again, it’s a caring act to breach personal data privacy to help suicidal individuals get the support they need.

In fact this misuse of technology can make things worse. It is deemed ethical because it serves a mental healthcare objective. But it usurps the individual’s decision. It enforces a tyranny which believes no free individual can choose to kill themselves.

It is unethical to dominate someone’s free will with a view to suppressing their freedom but people in the technology sector aren’t ethicists. They look to other professionals such as mental health professionals to guide them. They especially defer to doctors just like the public do.

The faith in the healthcare profession and its ethics is woefully misguided I’m afraid. Its very foundation is unscientific and the rest is the fruit of a poisonous tree. Simply, the healthcare profession should never have governed the phenomenon of mental illness because mental illness isn’t an illness.

Remember how homosexuality was once a mental illness but is no longer thought of as an illness. It was never caused by a biological brain disease but it has been classed as a mental illness for a few centuries. What’s critical here is the way cultural norms and prejudice are disguised as scientific illnesses. Homosexuality wasn’t demedicalised because of new research which demonstrated there was no biological cause for it. It was demedicalised because cultural values changed.

Then there’s misery and depression. Depression is the medical construct for misery but the meaning of the phenomena are totally different. I think it’s easy to understand that intense or persistent misery are natural human responses but calling it depression changes the sense and masks the truth. Free men experience misery and it’s normal. Sick men have depression and it’s an abnormal, irrational response to life circumstances because it’s thought of as being caused by a brain defect.

If suicide is a rational response and a natural human choice then it’s not an illness. Just like homosexuality. Free men can choose but sick men can’t. Free men can choose suicide but sick minds can’t.

It involves death which is why I’d accept the need to prevent against a mistake made on impulse but this doesn’t mean every suicide is a mistake. But I do see suicide as an acceptable and rational response to too much misery. Extreme suffering, be it physical or psychological pain, can be escaped from if it’s in the present or the future.

That’s why people choose suicide. Suicidal individuals have faced a pain which is to much for them to endure or one they will face in the future.

Suicide pain is by definition very severe because it causes someone to choose suicide and this includes psychological or life pain. It’s so easy to dismiss the validity of severe emotional suffering because of the meanings which the mental illness fallacy casts upon those it calls depressed.

What I’m trying to explain is the trust which an individual deserves when they want to die. Whatever pain they’re suffering and for whatever reason it is always extreme pain when it makes the individual suicidal. I trust in this much more than I trust in anything coming out of the psychiatric profession because I’ve experienced it.

The first time I wanted to die there was a confluence of factors which made me want to die. One of them was a relationship breakup. I fell in love then the relationship ended and I was decimated inside. It’s easy to dismiss this reason for suicide as irrational or illegitimate because most people don’t suffer what I suffer when I lose someone I love from my life. But I feel the suffering intensely. It took me a while to get over it but I fell in love again and when the relationship broke up I suffered even more and for longer than the first time. I wish I’d died the first time because a life without love is as impossible to endure as the years of suicide pain I feel when the person I loved is no longer in my life.

To escape the pain of love lost is a good enough reason to die for me because I’ve felt it and it is awful. It helps me trust other suicidal individuals. The things which make them want to die are undoubtedly different from my reasons but irrespective of the reason the suffering is always extreme when suicide becomes a good solution. People who want to escape what is beyond their threshold of pain then suicide provides the protection from harm that nothing else can.

When you find yourself suffering more than you can handle then you’ll want to die. You might act on impulse or you might spend some time thinking about it. The decision might be the wrong one or the right one but it’s a decision you will make if you suffer too much or fear suffering too much.

Can you empathise yet with a suicidal individual? If you can then you’d respect the decision but if you can’t then it’s easy to try and stop all suicidal individuals from succeeding. You can take away the liberty of a sick mind but not from a free man.

Perhaps there should be a level of protection against an impulsive suicidal act but that’s not the objective of suicide prevention surveillance of personal data. The aim there lacks empathy and respect for personal liberty. Suicide surveillance aims to prevent all suicides and so makes things worse.

If a suicidal individual understands their decision then they should be free to carry it out. I believe they should be granted an assisted suicide.

You might not want me to die. That’s a natural response too. But I don’t want to suffer anymore. If I die then the people who care for me will grieve but I’m sure they’d put the end of my suffering above the prevention of theirs.

The key is to see suicide as rational and trust that the pain is severe. Suicide is ultimately a personal choice. Cultural values haven’t caught up yet but they will then assisted suicide will be legalised. Already there’s a few countries which are leading the way. Till then the folks at Google, Facebook, Apple and the other technology companies need to find their heart and stop the blanket anti suicide policies they have in place.

In conclusion

Stop the persecution. Understand and trust that the suffering which causes suicidal feelings is severe. Don’t make things worse for those who have already suffered too much. Respect the liberty of free men even if you don’t want us to die.

And don’t trust the fallacy of mental health. This system would do anything to prevent a suicidal individual from succeeding but never attempted to even think about how to prevent suicidal feelings from happening. Worse still, the system is based on a lie. If mental illness was a real thing then homosexuality would still be a mental illness and personal private data would be used to persecute homosexuals.

A letter about suicide to a prince (alternative version 5 – another short version)

I sent this.

It will cause more deaths but is more humane. Legalise assisted suicide.

It’s always hard to fight for those freedoms which don’t exist yet. One of the most difficult freedoms is the right to choose one’s death because this will mean more people die. It is like the legalisation of abortion movement in that its opponents call it murder. Proponents call it freedom.

This godforsaken country refuses to legalise assisted suicide. Death isn’t as bad as living through a life which is worse than death. Suicidal individuals make an assessment and they value the escape from suffering now as the most important thing. When you find out what suffering is too much for you to bear then you will make the same decision.

Please consider the legalisation of assisted suicide. It is a merciful act whereas the blanket prevention of assisted suicide is inhumane. Assisted suicide would, if legalised, cause more death but these premature deaths are based on personal decisions to escape from the current or future pain which is beyond the individual’s threshold. They are suffering more than they can endure and suicide will always end their torment. That’s the essence of the rational decision to die. Suicide ends and prevents personal torture.

If the individual needs their pain to end but they’re powerless to stop it then suicide is the mercy which will always work. If you knew their suffering then you’d understand why they’d give up the rest of their existence just to stop suffering today. Each has their own breaking point.

You’d choose suicide if it happened to you. I firmly believe that you would. It’s a rational response to too much pain and misery. Please consider the legalisation of assisted suicide. It represents the mercy I’ve so desperately needed.

There is a basic human right to choose one’s death whenever possible

Between it becoming recognised in law is an evil tyranny.

You can choose to be part of the tyranny or you can choose to do nothing. This is what I’d expect from members of an evil human race which I’ve come to loathe and despise.

You can’t choose to be part of the fight for liberty because you’re evil at your core. I hope you die slowly and painfully. I hope you beg and pray for death but it never comes. I hope you can’t escape the living hell your life becomes.

Only then will you know what you’re fighting for: something which will matter to you one day. Something you will want guaranteed for you: the final mercy.

But you won’t fight for it today. You won’t fight for me and what I want. You’ll continue living your feckless lives and leave me to suffer.

I want to die and it is my right. I want a good death. I need an assisted suicide.

Suicide is good

It’s the end of an insufferable pain that’s gone on too long and a cruelty which shouldn’t have happened.

I don’t want to have a worse life because I’m different: what’s common to all disabled people

An assisted suicide is a blessing to those whose suffering is not escapable any other way

This fact alone should be enough to guarantee its legalisation but people are cunts who defer to the worst cunts: psychiatrists.

Where there should be compassion and mercy there’s tyranny in the suicide system. The mindless plebs leave things to a heartless profession which cloaks itself as good when it has more in common with oppressive institutions of the past, not the medical profession. The evil is redoubled by the specious biomedical psychiatric model of mental ‘health’. It disguises tyranny as healthcare and in doing so it has enabled the oppression to carry on unchecked.

To a psychiatrist a suicidal person is ‘sick’. They have a brain disease which is why they want to die according to the biomedical paradigm. It’s insane and not human to want to die. It’s not rational or reasonable but instead is an uncontrollable product of a brain disease. According to psychiatry a sane person wouldn’t choose to die. It is just mental illness which is what the cretins have the plebs believe. The plebs trust their doctors after all. They are like sheep blind to the injustice, an injustice which is clear as day to someone who’s actually lost their liberty and happiness to this terrible tyranny.

But mental illness is a lie and suicide is rational. No one wants to admit it is good but I’ve not got such qualms. Suicide is free will and it is a reasonable response to unendurable life circumstances which can’t otherwise be escaped. A suicidal person is experiencing severe distress which makes death an option. It is a profoundly harmful and very personal torture which makes suicide a better option than living. These are basic concepts which the tyranny of psychiatry ignores and the consequence for the suicidal individual is just awful.

The current suicide system and prevailing culture makes life worse for suicidal people. It’s unnecessary cuntishness after the great cuntishness of modern life and humanity which drives people to choose death over life.

What’s worst is the quality of death a suicidal person can choose in this country (not like forward thinking Switzerland). Effective methods are suppressed to prevent against impetuous suicide attempts succeeding but also because of the tyranny of psychiatry which has become an all but nonexistent improvement of the criminal justice system at managing suicide.

Most suicidal people are forced to go to their deaths alone. They’re forced to choose poor methods which can fail, cause physical injury if unsuccessful or harm to others. Unregulated suicide means suicide is a Hobson’s choice rather than a free and good choice so the suicide rate is artificially lowered. The mainstay of suicide prevention has been to actively place barriers between suicidal people and the good deaths they want.

I can’t be arsed to finish this other than to insult you. You’re cunts. You’re all monsters.

Legalise assisted suicide. Stop criminalising those who would deliver the final mercy. End my wretched life the right way.